Sufferings and Encouragements

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Just as Scripture’s Rising…

Songs, songs are rising too…

A week ago or so  I came down to breakfast. I came down to this… (Matt Chandler and Tenth Avenue North)–

my husband’s favorite preacher and a man of countless influence in his life….

This Word:

Humble yourselves, therefore, under the mighty hand of God so that at the proper time he may exalt you, casting all your anxieties on him, because he cares for you. 1 Peter 5:6,7

And I just stop, stop and – cast it, cast it. Lean back into the arms of the Lord. Let Him Carry It. Sometimes it is all one can do. Sometimes it is the ONLY thing to do.

Then I go about my days… and I hear, I hear this… (Rich Mullins, My Deliverer)

My deliverer is coming…this, just a Rich Mullins song rising in an unceasing refrain.

I search page after page after page on Bible Gateway… because

My God is MIGHTY to Save (My God is Mighty To Save, Hillsong)

This Word:

Zephaniah 3:17 (NIV)

The Lord your God is with you,

He is MIGHTY to save

I drive down the road, listening, listening to Seeds of Encouragement. A CD that has been a bulwark in other times of great loss and trial

This Song. (The Character Song, Romans 5:1-5)

This Word:

Romans 5:3-8

we rejoice in our sufferings, knowing that suffering produces endurance, and endurance produces character, and character produces hope, and hope does not put us to shame, because God’s love has been poured into our hearts through the Holy Spirit who has been given to us. For while we were still weak, at the right time Christ died for the ungodly. For one will scarcely die for a righteous person—though perhaps for a good person one would dare even to die— but God shows his love for us in that while we were still sinners, Christ died for us.

Suffering comes in different Forms and in different Ways…

as does Hardship And Trial…

And in all ways, in all forms, in all trials

God shows Himself faithful.

In the Grip of Grace, Rebecca

P.S. This doesn’t mean that it doesn’t hurt. This doesn’t mean we shouldn’t struggle. It hurts. We struggle. We fear. We wrestle. But He, He is enough. Trusting still that those IN CHRIST don’t have to go through alone. We are not alone.

Scripture Rising…

Scriptures Rising…

Some verses rise. Rise from within.

Not from my mind, that rolls in panic, reels with fear, fights unbelief. Not from my mind that creates plan after plan; problem solver.

They rise, fighting my unbelief, superseding my fragile rationality, my tunnel focus.

(I am very aware that we are full of inconsistencies, weaknesses, even hypocrisy, lack of character that would cast doubt on the Word. Of this I am grieved and ashamed- but it is NOT my righteousness, it is NOT my holiness. He is Faithful To Himself, The Covenant Is with Himself and Himself. Sealed Forever. For Jesus, Through Jesus, Because of Jesus, For His Sake, In His Name. Savior. Amen.)

Here for record, for the start of a new Ebenezer (more on this soon in another post)…

(Emphasis Mine)

Surely Goodness and Mercy Shall Follow Me All the Days of My Life… Psalm 23:6 (goodness and mercy; goodness and mercy; goodness and mercy- the refrain rings)

I have been young and now I am old, yet I have not seen the righteous forsaken or his children begging bread… Psalm 37:25  (repeat, repeat, repeat)

For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans for welfare and not for evil, to give you a future and a hope.  Jeremiah 29: 10-12  (prosper you, not to harm you…prosper you, not to harm you)

When you pass through the waters, I will be with you; and through the rivers, they shall not overwhelm you; when you shall walk through fire, you shall not be burned, and the flame shall not consume you. Isaiah 43:2

Fear not, for I am with you; be not dismayed, for I am your God; I will strengthen you, I will help you. I will uphold you with my righteous right hand. Isaiah 41:10

Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be terrified, do not be dismayed, For the Lord your God is with you wherever you go.  Joshua 1:9

I thought these verses were comfort for one scenario and yet as I just spent the time typing each one, I felt strength fill my bones… for another situation that has been dismaying me and in which I battle for justice and righteousness. They are comfort for all.

I realize- I cut myself off from the Comfort of the Lord when I am not open to His Words. Yet, He is so kind, kind… the Words rise through no special choice of my own. It is for good reason He is called the Comforter and is the One to bring to our remembrance all of His Words.

Today I received a message from a dear, dear friend who has battled health crises and illness for years. I was driving down the road pondering her message and blessed by her friendship- and feeling scared. Feeling scared about what ramifications all the stress that has continually assaulted me for the last 8 or more months will have upon my body, Todd’s body. And then I realized, God is not surprised. He has allowed it and I can trust Him. He is not surprised by the circumstances my friend finds herself in and the battle she has fought for years and fights daily- nor is He surprised by me. He knew and I must rest in that.

~Held in His Grace Truly and Learning to be a Warrior for Him~



Compelled to write this.

Facing a dismal mountain. After a series of smaller dismal mountains. And not quite sure what it means to trust… what does trust look like?


Dismay: (v) to break down the courage completely, as by sudden danger or trouble; dishearten thoroughly, daunt. (n) sudden or complete loss of courage, utter disheartenment, agitation of mind, perturbation, alarm.


Joshua 1:9

Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be frightened, and do not be dismayed, for the Lord your God is with you wherever you go.”

which the Holy Spirit brought forth out of my mouth, out of my heart… from some deep reservoir…

and this:

Lamentations 3:21

But this I call to mind, therefore I have hope: The steadfast love of the Lord never ceases; his mercies never come to an end. They are new every morning. Great is your faithfulness.

And he, his heart, was, has been,  utterly dismayed.

But this day, this day – there were some tentative wisps of hope.

And Joshua 1:9, it underscored comfort. (be notdismayed)

And then then later, I realized: Lamentations 3:21…


Trusting… that we will see His Faithfulness in His Timing.

6 Months Old…already??!

And my oldest sons remembered…

remember when the twins turned 6 months…

how we celebrated… what a big deal it was…6 months. I remember.

And now, my sweet littlest babe has turned six months. And she is so big. So, so big and so eager and watchful. So attentive to everything. So sweet. And I press her soft head against my check and I watch her as she rides around in the arms of doting siblings. And begins to blow raspberries and rolls around on the floor.  She multi- rolls and chews things! Advanced for one of our babies! 😉


Happy 6 Months Elenorah!!!


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Endless Gifts- Photo Edition


1,2,4,5,7,8, cozy squished on the couch.

1,2,4,5,7,8, cozy squished on the couch.



My girl, with a flower in her hair

My girl, with a flower in her hair


Morning Meeting Basket


Love. The Light in Her Eyes, The Smile On His Face



Read Aloud Time

Read Aloud Time

The three Babies

My Baby Girls

A Sunday Evening Preparing For Monday

A Sunday Evening Preparing For Monday

Brushing Hair. I missed the moment when Goldilocks held Princess steady with one hand while carefully brushing with the other. So, so sweet but forever in my memory.

Brushing Hair. I missed the moment when Goldilocks gently twined her arm under Princess’s arm, hand over her heart, held her steady with one hand while carefully brushing with the other. And how my brown-haired one, tucked her chin, and grinned. Twin Love. So, so sweet but forever in my memory.

Outdoor Fun with Jeeps

Outdoor Fun with Jeeps

Endless Gifts

Endless Gifts (mini version) compiled last weekend

On Teaching From A State of Rest by Andrew Kern Circe Institute

This version of Proverbs 16:9 that I discovered on a blog… but then when I went to verify it… I couldn’t find it! I think it is the Living Bible and Bible Gateway doesn’t offer that one… but it has been my motto and guiding principle these past months… We should make plans—counting on God to direct us. And so I have- and so He is. (and now I just checked again and The Living Bible is back up on Bible Gateway- and it is The Living Bible!)

Family Laughter with funny two year olds, blowing their hair in the air purifier “wind”

Watching them (my twins) play together, laugh, and interact. Mellie says, “Aymee, juice!” And she picks up her juice cup and starts to drink. Aymee says, “Che-ss (yes)” and picks up her juice cup and starts to drink. And then they drink, staring at each other.

Mellie says, “Aymee, Aymee- Come!” 🙂 And so, she does.

Hair cuts for my all boys. Love. And my girl, consoling her crying sister- who is terrified of the “buzzer” in the way only two year olds can be: “Don’t worry Mellie- you’ll never have to have this happen to you. You get to go to the hair dresser with Mommy and Abi.” Said in the sweet, comforting sisterly way.  And how she looks at everyone all askance… who are these shaven people? She is not quite sure.

How she (Elenorah) also known as Norah- Lou, Lucie, Ela, and Norah- lights up at the sight of her big brother. She lights up.

Family Breakfast Feast.

Beginning work on a photo book for a son

Friends who hear your heart and share your burdens

Who encourage you to press on in the Lord and counsel with Scripture and prayer

Kindreds who are there in the deep valleys and help uphold, undergird, strengthen, exhort, encourage

Spirit-Sisters who can see the dark ugly and shine Light

Blogging again

Our beautiful, valued piano and the tuner who confirmed it and the family who made it happen and the Lord who helped me and guided me to find it.

The First Week of our first year of learning at home in Maryland

Homeschool Planet. I am thankful.




The Things They Say -Pure Cuteness Edition-

The Things They Say: Pure Cuteness Edition.

We just spent a wonderful afternoon/early evening at Uncle Ryan’s house, after an overnight fun visit with Walker cousins. A full weekend of love. Celebrating twin cousins’ 1 year birthday. The day is done, meltdowns have begun… so we load up, gather, get ready to head home from the festivities. The Walker’s Load Up, We Load Up. We have some help from Ama- who happily helps tuck kids into the car and tells the twins, “Bye! I’ll see you soon!”

The Van Pulls Out. The Ama is walking a small distance back to the party. Suddenly, a little twin starts calling at the top of her little lungs,

“Bye! See you! Love you”

and her little hand is waving and forming the I Love You Sign as she calls excitedly.

And of course- it is in the most adorable baby speak, where the words are just crunchily slurred in the most yummy way. She is waving and calling and kicking her legs with excitement as we pull away. We roll down the window to give Ama the benefit of this adorable cuteness just for her. We pass the house. She continues waving.

“Bye! See you! Love you!” Waving and forming the sign.


And my heart feels happy, happy that we will see you soon. We love you. And happy, happy that my little girl has internalized this small benediction. As that is how we tuck her in each night after prayers. “Bye, See You Later, I Love You!” With all the signs in motion.

The Things They Say